improve yourself if you wanna climb up the mountain

its officially 4 weeks of paediatrics posting which is about 3 weeks of bedside presentation..and yet, i juz presenting my case today which is that soooooooooooooo late....

wahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
its so bad that i can't even imagine.. it was the worse presentation ever in my group.. how could i don't know how to assess peripheral examination for dengue case. how can't i don't know how to check for pulse rate, volume and rhythm. that soooooooooooooooooo bad of you fazzira...

what do you want to assess in patient with suspected of dengue fever?? (and i just stand by the patient without doing anything...wahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! what have you learn in past 2 years, Fazzira?????)

that sooooooooo terrible that i can't even speak out a word even i had been read about it just before the class started and i juz ask my friends how to do it in proper way (the fact that i knew about it but practically never done it before as i never had experience in clerking case of dengue fever..) poor you girl..

i'm sooooooooooooo disappointed of myself for not being able to answer all the question ask by Dr FLS even i knew that was the answer.. i'm nervous, speechless, and stunted at the moment that i can't even think.. every word that Dr said, is like a new things to me and i can't digest it and process it..

even though, Dr was not scold me just now, but i feel like i'm suppose to be scold for not doing well..

it was a bad day, and i was a bad presenter back then.. hopefully i can improve in future. and, thanks to all my group's members for supporting me and encourage me to improve myself..

it is a way of learning..hopefully, i will learn more from the mistake that i make and improve myself..i'm not going to waste all the effort that everyone had today..

best of luck, Fazzira~~  :)

p/s: there is one attachment student from Jordan joined our group today..and that student is he.. it made me feel awkward..not because he is "he" but because of the presence of other member other than my group members (which is almost all are girls except for one guy that i deny his presence)..and, that make me feel like "keciknya dunia nie kan...hehe"