perlukah jujur?

kejujuran itu kadang-kala menyakitkan.. dan kadang-kala ia mampu membunuh kekuatan dan keyakinan diri.. malah, lebih teruk lagi, kejujuran itu mampu menjadikan kita berani untuk menipu bila kejujuran itu tak di hargai sebaliknya penipuan di jadikan contoh...

p/s: mood sedih... T_T

it our journey

clinical years is a bit tough for me in this 2 weeks, but there somethings that i learned from the patients. as long as you are polite, smile, and greet them in a proper ways, they are willing to help you in the learning process. and also, all the nurses, HO, MO are too kind that they are willing to teach us, to guide us, and to let us observes all the procedure and at the same time explains to us about all the equipments that use.

thanks to all of you, our journey as a medical students and future, a doctors, started with you. it start from today and continue until our graduation. and, it will continue as long as we are in this field.

and, to all kakak-kakak that are willing to answer to each of our question, in order for us to clerk the patient to get the history. even, they are just admitted a few minute before, still they are still smiling while we questioned them. and, thank for being able to bear with our silly-silly question and our shy-shy behave and our act. sometime, we did explain but those kakak might not understand it well, and sometime, when we looked at the data, still need to open up books to get the normal value of the urine test, FBC, and renal profile. carrying all the books, notebook, pocket book along with us while interviewng those kakak, and still selak2 note while asking them.

but, Alhamdulillah, they are very understanding and very helpful to help us in our learning process. they are our first patient, and we are sorry for all the inconvenience thins.

case write-up

wahhhhhhhhhh.....akhirnya!!!!!siap juga case write up of normal delivery walaupun berbagai halangan melanda...selepas bertungkus lumus menyiapkannya malam tadi (in fact due date dia hari ni), akhirnya hasilnya berada dalam genggaman ku..luckyly hari nie x da kelas, juz ward work yg of course aku dah skip..hehe..

entah apa la yg aku dah mengarut semalam sampai 8 muka surat tu.nasib la..nak jadi apa pun tak tahu la..of course that not my patient actually as i did had some difficulty in getting my patient's data.. and my friend did offer me to share her patient with me because there nothing more i can do to get my own patient..i had a lot of classes to attend plus some bedside teaching..

actually, clinical years is more tougher than preclinical years..it a warning to my junior that are going to start their preclinical years this September, if you think that you are going to make fun of your time in medical school, it better for you to quit now..it now as easy as you think becoming a medical student, and further medical practitioner..there is a lot of sacrifice, a lot of hard work and a lot of thing that you have to leave behind..

tetiba aku dah masuk mood emo sikit..sebenarnya, ini byk kata2 yg diluahkan oleh doktor2 kat kami, medical students..i admitted, sometimes i did make fun of my time as a medical student, but sometime i had to sacrifice most of my time too..as a person, as a daughter, as a teenager (teenager lg ke..haha)

kusambut mu dengan syukur

bermula kehidupan seorang insan
pada saat dia dilahirkan di dunia
tangisannya mengiringi lahirnya dia di bumi Allah sebagai hambaNya sebagaimana yang telah di janjikan
lahirnya ke dunia untuk tunduk dan sujud pada Dia Maha Pencipta
lahirnya bukan untuk kemusnahan

satu perasaan wujud dalam hati ini
mengiringi lahirnya seorang hamba Allah
melihat dunia dari matanya
dan
insyaAllah, bakal meneruskan tugas sebagai khalifah di muka bumi ini

lahirnya seorang bayi itu,
menyaksikan betapa peritnya sakit saat melahirkan
menanggung sakit berjam-jam
bahkan, adakala berhari-hari
apakah aku masih belum sedar dari lenaku
melihat seorang ibu bertarung nyawa demi anaknya
sebagaimana semua ibu-ibu, dan juga ibuku
syukur padaMu ya Allah,
di beri aku kesempatan melihat keajaiban ini
memberi aku kesempatan menyaksi dan menghargai jasa ibuku

cinta, pengorbanan, masa depan

di dalam kelam malam
disapa dingin pagi
ditemani buku-buku dan nota
berteman lappy kesayangan
dengan earphone bergegar di telinga
 jejari berlari-lari bersama pena biru
mencoret nota-nota cinta
demi masa depan
hijau, merah jambu, oren, kuning...berselang seli warna
menari-nari di muka buku
esok datang lagi
terus bercinta dengan nota, buku
berdating di dewan kuliah
kesana ke mari, tawaf di sekeliling aras 6
demi mencari sesuatu yang berharga untuk mengubah masa depan ku
jeritan, tengking, maki hamun, herdikan, sindiran
tak ku pedulikan
kerna ku hanya insan kerdil
berjalan mencari ilmu Allah
kerna itu fardhu buat ku

sem baru, perasaan baru

dah lama tinggal blog ni...bukan sebab sibuk tapi sebab x bleh nak connect internet..bila balik rumah ja, terputus la aku dengan dunia luar..

currently in semester 5, year 3 at Sungai Buloh campus..

bagi aku, ini sesuatu yg menakutkan tapi xtau napa..first posting aku O&G..baru first day dah rasa penat sgt2, lepas ni x tau la cam na..

tapi, apa2 pun aku rasa semua ni menakutkan dan mendebarkan bagi aku...