am i worth to be here?

feel like quiting with what i'm doing right now.i'm getting helpless, helpless and helpless.everything gone in miserable and i can't even do anything.

had think about it before but never make up my mind.juz think bout it and let it go as time pass away.but, now, i'm getting tired with all those things and make me feel really want to do it..still, some are support all my decision as long as it is good for myself and doing nothing bad, it's ok. but i should think about those who are not supporting but, mean, they want me to continue with all the things that i had gone through everyday.cause, it already being a part of my life..

in a meeting that i had attended, sumone told me, "fazzira, one day you'll proud of yourself in what you are doing now. i can promise you that, within 10 years, u'll be proud of urself for not quiting.but, sure u'll be proud of urself too if u are quiting.but, i can guarantee u that u'll be proud of urself in 10 years time."

and, i believe that everyone will be proud of me in 3 to 4 years later. my paretns, especially my mom, my family, my relatives even my friends will be proud of me. and, maybe my kids will be proud of me too.insyaAllah (always think about kids, having a big family with loving, caring spouse..hehe..)

one day, sumone might tell me, thank you dear.i luv u..i knew that u can do it..i knew that u can make me proud of u..but, am i going to be proud of myself???am i going to satisfy with what i had late??or am i going to be regretful for the rest of my life??

i.m too tired..i'm getting weak, weaker and weaker.Allah, please guide me..please, show me the right path, the right choice in my life. Allah, i need U..i need U to guide me, to make me be more stronger than i should, to keep me breathing..

i don't want to lost hope anymore, i don't want to lost faith anymore. i already did once, never do it again..

now, i thinking bout it, about quiting..please..my friends, i need ur help..which way should i choose?

i'm getting tired, helpless and more over, i lose hope..

~~~rest~~~think~~~sleep~~~

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